Big Mouth

you know when you fall out of love with someone but are still in that relationship and are unable to get out for some reason or another? not that I know really. but I think if I were in that place I'd be able to reconcile staying only if my partner were ailing physically or otherwise, and needed me to take care of him/her. only philanthropy can fill in the gap left by a sudden love-sucked-out-ness. its the same with a place too. its like that these days between me and Delhi (or me and India). (un)fortunately my country is ailing, always has been. then I loved it despite its sickness, despite its scars, but now the only way I could stay without killing myself (not literally) is to tend to it. but am I capable of that? more importantly, do I have the courage for it? For old times' sake??