you know when you fall out of love with someone but are still in that relationship and are unable to get out for some reason or another? not that I know really. but I think if I were in that place I'd be able to reconcile staying only if my partner were ailing physically or otherwise, and needed me to take care of him/her. only philanthropy can fill in the gap left by a sudden love-sucked-out-ness. its the same with a place too. its like that these days between me and Delhi (or me and India). (un)fortunately my country is ailing, always has been. then I loved it despite its sickness, despite its scars, but now the only way I could stay without killing myself (not literally) is to tend to it. but am I capable of that? more importantly, do I have the courage for it? For old times' sake??